I'm overwhelmed, thank you!
Before anything else, I want to express my sincerest and deepest gratitude to everyone who took their time to send their messages of support. Thank you as well, for those who shared their depression stories. I can assure you that I will keep those private.
Not everyone is open to telling their stories. In fact, I wrote in my previous post that it took me months or honestly years to deliberate before I sought professional help. Believe it or not, your words of encouragement were indeed a big help in battling my depression. Thank you everyone for making me feel that I am not alone and I am not the only person who is going through this type of struggle.
Taking antidepressant pills can be very difficult. I feel groggy the whole time and have bursts of bawling episodes for no apparent reason. I perceive things negatively and am just sleeping the whole day. Nevertheless, I'm certain that the medicine is stabilizing my chemically imbalanced brain and hopefully soon - albiet slowly, my body will start to adjust and I'll feel a lot better.
Times like these helped me determine those people who truly cared for me. The truth is, I am quite disappointed and surprised because the ones that I've went out of my way for were the ones who left me after I was diagnosed. But there's really nothing I can do but to #KEEPFIGHTING.
life lessons I've learned from the past few days
My boss told me to relax and relax some more. People who are depressed tend to overthink and most of the time that is the reason why they end up crying. There are days when I feel upset and cry just because I create these awful scenarios in my head that doesn't even exist. Here's a tip for people who suffer the same illness as I do: stop thinking and just breathe.
Because we overthink too much, we oftentimes end up comparing ourselves to other people. We tend to compare how we look physically, how people treat us and what we have achieved. Last night, a good friend of mine explained to me that comparison is never healthy and that everyone is treated differently and/or unique in their own way. Someday, you'll be surprised and maybe you'd realize that you're special to them all along.
I've read dozens of article about people with depression and how talking it out could be a good way to release negativity. People with depression usually think negatively and the proper way to address those negative thoughts is to talk to a friend. Talk about your negative thoughts so people can guide you. Honestly, I had suicidal thoughts and the first thing I did was to talk to a friend about it. Believe it or not, telling your friend about your suicidal thoughts could actually stop you from doing it.