NO, WE'RE NOT DONE YET!
Oh lala! Happy Holidays from Makati Medical Center!
Yesterday was my last therapy session for 2017 and I am very happy to see (and feel) the huge improvement and fast recovery after only several treatments. The doctor also lowered down the dosage of my medications. Nevertheless, the fight still doesn't end. Conquering depression is an ongoing battle and we just have to trust the process and most importantly -- help ourselves along the way.
When people ask me about what present I want for Christmas, I would often tell them that I don't need any material things. Your words of encouragement and prayers are enough to make my holiday season a great one. Moreover, I am utterly grateful because a whole bunch of you guys messaged me about how glad they are for me for documenting my progress and for giving awareness for a sickness that is often being neglected.
Not a lot of people are properly diagnosed because they fear what other people might think. STOP OVERTHINKING! There's nothing wrong with consulting a psychiatrist about this type of condition because this is something that needs immediate attention.
Believe it or not, I was first diagnosed with depression during my 4th year in secondary school. I was treated with a little medication and spiritual enlightenment. I never thought that this would trigger again and it become even worse. Fast forward to yesterday's therapy, my doctor feels ecstatic with the vast improvements.
So, what's my secret with conquering depression?
Here are the things I did in order to help myself because medication and therapy wouldn't be enough -- it is necessary that you help yourself too.
REACH OUT TO PEOPLE
I'm so glad that the new meds from my last therapy are working very well so my mood for the past two weeks was manageable unless some event or unforeseen circumstance would trigger an episode. What I did was to reach out to people. Every week I make sure my mom or my best friends would stay in my pad. At the same time, I tied up loose ends so I can move forward because after all -- it is also part of the healing process. Honestly, I got so frustrated when someone told me that I am not helping myself so I want to prove that person wrong and I'm glad I did and am doing it well.
LET GO OF TOXIC PEOPLE
Although it has always been my mantra to let go of toxic people, this time I've clearly identified the ones who'll see me through - highs or lows. I don't see anything wrong with keeping a small circle of friends. It may be small but I am sure that they will stick with me through thick and thin. Although I have to admit that sometimes I still ruminate all the bad memories but I am glad that I've decided to finally let things go and just accept that not everyone will be there for you and you are not wonder woman thinking that you can do anything and you can please everybody.
NOT GIVE A F*CK
Finally! After months and months of practice, I started to not give a f*ck about what people think about me. If they don't care about my situation then so be it. I can fix this through the help of my doctor, medication, and close friends. People know me as a strong woman and believe it or not, I'm starting to become the clar who just does not care about what people think. I don't want to make my life complicated and I won't waste a minute of my life thinking about people who won't even go out of their way for me. I guess it is about time to be a strong independent woman.
I'm still a work in progress but I know there are rooms for improvement and I won't let everyone down. Keep fighting and eventually we will conquer depression and this will be a success story of a woman who was strong before and even stronger now.